2020 has been the year that saw “unprecedented” join “moist” on the list of most annoying words ever.
Why oh why would yet another dose of the unexpected be welcome then? I’ll give you a clue, it’s not because of the prehistoric worms that Russian scientists apparently thawed out and brought back to life. That’s unexpected and uh, creepy AF.
The welcome dose has been in feeling lighter and more aligned as the month has gone on. October is generally not my favourite month. It gets darker and colder, it’s expensive as I have a certain person’s birthday to mark and it’s the anniversary of Oliver’s death on the 1st of November. It has previously felt like a downward tunnel into the dark from which I cannot emerge before the 2nd November.
This year it has felt the opposite. That’s not to say I won’t be a heap of grief next weekend, but it’s not overshadowing the whole month the way it has before.
Let’s do some unpicking, shall we?
As someone who likes to ask why, I’ve been thinking about what’s different.
- Anna’s theta healing. I told you a bit about it last week, and I didn’t want to get my hopes up that the shift was going to be lasting but… my back is still straight, I’m still walking taller and feeling lighter. When I think about visibility I hear “I’m Coming Out” and fireworks instead of wanting to hide. I’ve linked the Trolls version, because Bridget has the best hair since Farrah Fawcett.
- Reading that ultra independence is a trauma response, and accepting it as true. If you also suffer with this, have a read of the linked article. It’s had a huge impact on me – Jimmy Cliff is singing “I can see clearly now the rain is gone” in my ears kind of impact. I’ve linked it. Treat yourself to 3 uplifting minutes. Go on, you’re worth it.
- Taking action. I have been thinking, and then talking, about getting some blood tests done for a while to see if there are underlying issues that are making life more difficult than it needs to be. There is every likelihood that the doc will say that my blood revealed nothing. In the in-between bit, where I’ve taken action and my blood is off being analysed, it’s like Schrodinger’s cat. Until the results come back, the answer is both that there is nothing and that there is something that be fixed by a magic pill. While the magic pill is a possibility, I’m feeling healthier already. Weird huh?
- Accepting help. Reference point 2, this one is hard for me. I had to be backed into a corner with witnesses, but I did it. I accepted help. As a result I have a new email service being set up because the one I tried to do myself didn’t work. So if you’ve previously tried to get the blog in your inbox and have received nada, please try again on the new link 🙂 and let me know if nothing happens?
- The Totally Awesome Happiness Challenge. I believe that the daily practice of appreciating the little things, feeling gratitude and sharing them has helped to keep my mood elevated. If you’d like to join us, you’d be very welcome.
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